Maybe no one cant understand whats in my heart.
How strugle that i had to pay for get in through this ministry.
Since 3 years ago, i'm try to follow so many examination for being public servant, but i got nothing at that moment.
Sometimes i'm feel very upset with all surround me, when i see my bestfriend can smile with their job, can talk each other about their activity in their office. and i'm just sit behind them, listen carefully bout their conversation,and then when i'm back home sometimes i'm cry...
Its hard feeling when u cant do like others people do,esp. ur best friend do.
Than, I'm cry.. i'm asked God : what is Ur problem to me ??? why i cant be like my friend??? i'm not so stupid or lazy?? but why my future not bright as my friend. and i know, He didnt answer my questions directly.
He answer my pray after 3 years i had been waiting for. He let me in at Ministry of Finance, esp in Capital Market and Financial Institution Supervisory Agency. Its really hard to believe and receive that He answer my pray. I’m shout out loud.. crying and say thanks to Him , thousand times....
Now, maybe i’m usually update my facebook status with my story in this ministry. Not for being much, but just to show everyone how much happy i am.
ButMaybe i’m wrong, i’m wrong in front of common people, wrong that i’m so happy with this job.
Is it wrong feeling, people???
My commitment in new year party resound again... should i’m being someone different next day???
Its gonna be the hardest day of my life..............
tERe – 18 Januari 2011 (15.01 in the corner)
